Hey everyone,
I'm sorry I haven't been blogging. I got a laptop for my birthday in November and I'd written a couple blog posts but for some reason the computer wouldn't post them. But I just tried posting something right now and it worked so I'm going to try again.
These past couple months have been difficult for me spiritually. I honestly feel like a faker and a lier posting right now. I'm been doubting and questioning my faith intensely and it just seems to be getting worse. I don't even know what to say. I've just drifted from God alot. I had a meeting with my pastor that I arranged about over a month ago to discuss how I'm feeling, and although I really enjoyed speaking to him and hearing what he had to say, I just don't feel an emotional connection to God at this point.
I'm struggling alot with if this is normal to feel like this. This isn't just some, I don't really believe in God right now. This is doubting and questioning so much that I have instilled in myself since I was 11. My morals and values are the same. I just don't know about my religion.
And I do still believe in God. I just don't know about my relationship with Him. This is honestly the most hard thing to explain. I'm sorry.
Happy Christmas Break
