About Me

Hey guys.

I'm back from a day on the slopes. I teach skiing to young kids on Saturday's in the winter, so that's why my posts aren't during the day on the weekend. SO. I was thinking today that I haven't told you guys about how I found God. I know you may have read the post on the side in the 'About Me' stuff, but it doesn't contain any information about who I am and how I got into my life with Jesus. So today's entry is going to be about that. It's not going to be too too long, so I won't bore you. ;) BUT, I do hope you continue reading, because my journey with God hasn't been easy and picture perfect. It's been very real. I'm not going to sugar coat anything, because well, we all know it's a load of junk.

In gr. 6, I gave my life to God on the day after my 11th birthday. The lead up to it wasn't really anything drastic. I know alot of people love to hear things like, I was into hard drugs and then I was like, No. This has to stop. But the thing is, it wasn't like that for me. I just never felt, complete, if you will. I started going to Youth Group at my local church, which has honestly saved my life. When we'd sing worship songs or when my youth pastor would speak, I understood what he was saying, but I never felt it in my heart. But, that day, I felt it. I needed it. It wasn't a question of whether or not I wanted it, I HAD to have it. So my youth pastor's wife helped me give my life to God. I cried. I felt amazing afterwards. It was kind of a feeling I can't describe, so I'm not going to try to. I don't want to wreck it.

After that, I got into reading my Bible and praying. Gr. 7 was a good year. I was happy, I had all of my great friends. But then gr. 8 struck. I started dating a really toxic boy (obviously not what I thought of him at the time) and I lost alot of my friends. I turned away from God completely, and I turned to the guy I thought I would be with forever. But, as it turns out, he broke up with me and I was left with nothing. It was a very, very dark time in my life. I started some bad habits, which I am not proud of, but am not ashamed of anymore. I cried everyday, my eyes were constantly blood shot, and deep, dark poems filled the pages of my poetry books. I was calling out in the only way that I knew how. But, slowly but surely, I turned back to God. I realized after that I needed Him so much more than I would ever need a boy. It took me a long, long time to mend. It took me about a year to forget about the boy, and it took me about 7 months to kick some of the bad habits I'd begun. BUT, I achieved all of those things with help from God.

Now, being a year older, and having that much more experience, I look back on that and say, Wow. I was tough. But I was also extremely weak. I was weak because I thought I could do things on my own, but I was tough and rebellious because I thought that I could. I don't encourage any of you to go the route I did. I've shared my testimony (story) twice at my youth group. You may be thinking, Oh well that's only because she had something interesting to say. To tell you the truth, every part about coming to God is interesting. Whether it's mine, your's or someone you don't even know.

I'm living my life day to day, one step at a time. Yes, I do forget to read my Bible half the time. I pray alot though. I talk to God like I would talk to anyone else. Yes, I've sworn at Him for 'ruining' my life. Yes, I've cried and cried at Him because that was the only thing I knew how to do at that point. But He's okay with that. And I have a life time and more to thank Him for it.

SO. I hope all of you know me a little bit better now, and I hope you all look at me like I'm a little more real, and not just someone who's writing a blog for christian teens. I want to tell you all that if you're contemplating getting to know God better and inviting Him into your heart, but you're afraid or scared that you've done too many bad things to be worthy, I have these words for you. YOU ARE. YOU ARE WORTHY. I PROMISE. God can handle it. He's waiting for you. It's like a door with only one handle, and you've got the handle. Only YOU can open the door to God, He can't make you.

Happy Saturday guys. :)
Enjoy the weekend.